I'm back from aunt's place.
Morning went to Aunt's coffee shop again lo =XxX
Slack ther.
Dad came at 12 and left at 1 for work alr. He came for lunch. But he can even don't eat cos he has got the straights time that i brought ther earlier on. Newspapers, storybooks, Channel5, HBO are the most important things in his life -.- And he loves to watch those english drama, movies which will make me fall asleep so easily!!! LOL ;p Cut the craps!

Went over to aunt's place at 5plus and then home at 12plus.
When i reach her place, i straight away vomitted -.- Disgusted!
And suddenly, i went off, to her downstairs to take a walk and stop myself from being sad =((
Suddenly become so down.

Was about to leave, heard mum talking to aunt. And i think, why does humans have to be unhappy?! Why do humans have got so much to think about!? In my family, i guess noone is happy. And i don't know the main reason for everything!

I've alot alot to think about. But girlfriends and him is always the first i think of, second would be my family, third would be friends. Why do i have so much problems in my life?! Why do i have to think so much while i see others living their life happily?! WHO WOULD BE THER TO LISTEN TO ME?! Like what someone said, in the past when things happen i would always look for him. And i swear i won't hesitate to msg him whenever i feel like to. But now?! Why am i keeping things to myself?! Each and everything!? Why do i have to do that, and why do i din even have the courage to share with that someone and my sisters about the problems i'm facing now?!

And yay! My cousinsister is coming over to my place to stay on her march holiday. And i promise to go her house to stay for one day, and she coming over to stay for 2days! LOL ;p But her house is somehow abit far la okays. At Batok -.-

Sighs..... I want to go to the beach(to listen to waves and cry out loud there), i want to look at the stars(to secretly tell them the problems i'm having now), and i really need a shoulder to cry on. Or maybe, i should be alone.

And i know, sometimes, i might be thinking too much. But i knows very clearly that what i'm thinking is true. Noone can change the fact.

Ther's always so much i wanted to do and say. But i always don't have the courage to do so! Ther were times when i wanted to msg you, but yet i diden. And when my phone rings, i always hope that its you. I know i wasn't the one that you would msg, but yet i always hope that it was you. Alot tells me, not worth it. Yet i'm falling deeper and deeper each time. Each time i feels the pain, i cried non stop. Yes lah, i admit that i'm a crybaby =XxX Imissyou