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I've fall and i can't stand up anymore. I've broke down. But i know i really really want to move on too! I know you wouldn't be there for me anymore! I always thought that i just wanted you to be part of my life. But i guess, its just a habit thinking of you always. Or maybe i just haven ask myself to let go totally. Things come and go. But i kept you to myself. And i know its really time to let go. I know and i admit, i dare to talk to someone else much more than i talk to you. I dare to smile to someone else much more than i smile to you. That makes myself look so fake, so uneasy ALWAYS! I always want to be myself. I don't like to be a fake person! REALLY DON'T LIKE! This make me realise that you ain't really the one.
I reallt felt very very miserable when i told myself its time to forget you. I told everyone that you were my everything. I told them, i'm going to wait no matter what happens. I'm going to wait no matter how long it takes. But i think what i told, is not going to be true anymore. And i really really know when i told them those, i know it actually won't happen in my life before.
Now, i'm thinking which way to head to when i want to carry on with my life. I felt so confused. I don't know whether if i can. But i know i'd to! No matter what. I'd to forget you! I'm being forced to forget you. Being forced by you! Yes, you're cruel. I don't mind anything anymore!
Or maybe, i should start to tell myself, when the phone rings, i CANNOT hope that its you anymore. Everyone knows that i'm strong enough to overcome everything that i want to do. But me myself don't know. And i don't know how long do i have to take, just to let go. Just to have a new start.
Be it just friends or less than that, you'd left me alone. YOU'D LEFT ME ALL ALONE! So i don't see there's a need to hold on anymore.
I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE!
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