I'll look into the sky when i wanna see you, listen to the waves when i wanna hear you.

I think i'm at fault.
I should not love you.
&&i'm sorry =((

The way i fall, doesn't seems to be like the past anymore!
Last year's this few months, you was always here for me.
He left me silently.
And you was the one whom i always find when things happen to me.
You was the one who was being ther for me always without fail.
But why do something stop me when i want to find you now?!
I hope time could stop at that time when you would always be ther.

That day, was at ~~teckwhye~~.
I saw him ther, i told myself not to look at him, not even a glance.
&&When i saw you ther at the same place, i told myself the same thing.
But i couldn't bear not to look at you.
In fact, i hope i could look at you wherever you go.
To me, the most wonderful thing was, just get to see you.
I hope to tell you that its him who left me silently, its him who made me sad, and you were the one who was ther to cheer me up, listen to me all the time without fail.
I'm like wanting to tell you that it was him, but something stopped me.
Maybe i long time never msg you le bahs.
I find no courage to tell you that its him.

~~I used him to forget you.~~
~~Yet the retribution was him to leave me silently.~~
When he leaves, you was the first one i think of to talk to.
And that time, i realise that you were my everything.
I can't forget you no matter how hard i've tried.
I can't forget you no matter how long i use to.
I have so much to say to you.
Yet i was never given a chance to.
I was never the one that you'll care or even bother.
You said that i was the one who din contact you.
You said that i was the one who din find you when things happened.
Okays, so its my fault :(
But at the same time i was thinking,
why did i not recieve your msg whenever i din msg you?!
Maybe you've got too many friends that you need to care for.
But do you know that all along i hope that you would msg me.
Really hope that the msges i recieved was being send by you :(
You were the one i really hope to look for, but somehow, something stopped me.
Will you ever want to know how i feel?!
Will you ever want to know who i always miss?!

Every place i go, reminds me a little of your everything.
If i have a chance, i would want to hold on tight no matter what happens.
I'll never want to let you go.
I want you back!
I need you, i need your love, need you by my side.

If one day, i were to forget you.
Be it, being force or ~~willingly to~~.
I'll still secretly still remember you in my heart.
I'll secretly still miss/love you.
You'll still be and always be the first i secretly think of.
In my heart, you're worth for everything that i do.
Even if you'll never feel the pain in me.
Even if i'll never be the one that you'll care for.
Even if i'll never be the one and only in your heart, you will still be my everything!
You will still be my one and only.
And of cos, you'll still be my most sweetest, most wonderful and most beautiful past.
Not really much, but at least i once had you by my side before.
At least i called you mine before.
At least, i know that you're the one i love most.
The one i wanted to be with all along in my whole lifetime.

I'll still wait no matter what happens.
I'll still be ther for you no matter what.
Time doesn't really matter to me anymore.
The only thing i would care/want, is to be with you.
And even if i can't, i just want you to be happy.

I love you more than anyone else do.
I need you more than anyone else do.
That's the truth.
That's the fact that'll never be change!
Everything that i do, will never fails to remind me of you.
I had never accept the fact that you was gone and would never be mine anymore.
I'll want to do anything, just because of you.
I'll want to do anything, just because i want you to be by my side.
You're my everything.
&&all i ever wanted is you, nobody else anymore!

And the feeling of waiting for the one who'll never want you, loving the one who'll never love you in return, is the most terrible thing on earth! I swear. Maybe you won't even bother to read, won't even bother to know. But the feelings inside me was all true. Its just so true, and i'll never want to lie. NEVER.

I don't know why i love you so much, i don't know why i can't forget you.
And for now, the happiest thing is to see you from far.
&&I'll never want you to know anything.
Just all the thoughts in my heart ):

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KAIXIN--♥

Growing one year older on every 14'OCT.
Have great families & friends around me.
Working very had to get everything perfect in my life.
Love me for who am i :D

&&I just want you to play apart in my life.

I still miss and love him like how i used to.
Imissyou :(

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